There have been moments in my life, moments of such crystal clarity, where the experience of living shifts into sharp focus. Colors heightened as my sense open, as my emotions and spirit merge with my body, as I become fully alive in the present moment. Moments where the wheels in my spinning mind halt and my constant interpretation of every nuance of the world around me fades away, leaving only me, experiencing. Time ceases it’s ever-forward-movement.
Only Now is. I am.
In these moments, I may not have been free of pain, but I was free from suffering. Free from struggling to understand everything, struggling to hem life into my preconceived notions of what I should or shouldn’t be doing, saying, thinking, feeling. There may have been pain, but it was clean, piercing, like the ice cold splash of diving into a crystalline pool of water, so cold, but so alive.
I long for that feeling of aliveness, found in those moments sprinkled throughout my life. I dream of the day I’ll wake up, happy to be alive, happy with the day before me, and pleased with the day behind me. I wish for a daily experience of life ripe with that piercing joy found in touching the divine aliveness within.
Is it too much to ask for? To ask to be happy to be alive? To ask to enjoy my own existence?
This is the true desire of my heart, the wish beneath all other wishes. I’m calling this longing an urge to come alive, to thrive, to live my life vibrantly alive. To experience the full spectrum of existence, a vibrant rainbow of living energy. To fully feel all of myself, to accept myself, to hold myself as sacred and whole. Living vibrantly alive is a journey of self discovery, an awakening of the senses and a clearing of mental fog. It’s a celebration of the moment, an acceptance of what is and a choice to be where and who I am, currently.
Living Vibrantly Alive is the antidote to apathy, that boredom inherent in an unfulfilled life, that disempowerment in defeatism, that alienation from self, community, and life’s thrusting pulses.
This longing I feel, not only for myself, but for all of us.
I imagine a world, full of humans genuinely delighting in their own lives and existence on this beautiful Earth. What would those humans do? What new heights would we achieve together? How many social ills would fade away, a memory of distant lessons learned?
The choice to live vibrantly alive is a spiritual journey, a means towards self actualization and a foundation for human advancement. A generation of human society fully enjoying the spectrum of life, fully thriving, would be capable of so much more than we have yet experienced in recent history. A generation, in tune with the living energy within themselves, connected to that energy present within nature, thinking clearly and therefore empowered to act, is capable of redesigning and recreating our assumptions of self, society, and our entire trajectory on this planet.
This is the goal I have set for myself, to enjoy my own existence and to empower my action, to live vibrantly alive. And this is what I am sharing here, the insights I have, the tools I use, the process I undergo. And this is what I offer through my services, to empower those who work with me to come into connection with themselves, to shift what must be shifted, to take up what tools work for them, and to undergo the process of personal growth and expansion.
It has always been the urge of my heart to offer my hands in service. To minister to those in pain and to bring to light what insight and experience I have found in communion with my soul and with Spirit. I’m coming out now, again, bringing what I have found within myself to offer it to those who may be looking for it.
Selene Aswell is a coach, facilitator and community living consultant.